Let me introduce you to my beautiful sister Hannah and her handsome hubby Steven.
Aren’t they a beautiful couple!
They just celebrated their 10 year Wedding Anniversary!
Growing up, Hannah was always one who LOVED to take care of
any baby that she could get her hands on.
It didn’t matter how stinky or gross the child’s need may have been, she was always happy to oblige.
She dreamed of becoming a wife
and a mother one day
and now with Steven by her side, she had someone to share
this dream with!
After many disappointing negative pregnancy tests, they decided to seek
in order to conceive. Many treatments later, you can imagine the excitement
they shared when they saw the
positive plus sign
that revealed that they were going to be parents!
We were all
completely “over the moon” and ready to celebrate!
Things were going smoothly
and before long, the baby was growing and she was glowing!
It was shortly after she hit the “10 week marker” that Hannah began to
experience some pain and loss of blood.
Under close watch by the docs, she was put on bed rest
but her symptoms of a “potential miscarriage” continued.
Standing next to her on one side
and her trembling husband on the other, we waited for the Ultrasound Technician
to enter the room.
As the Tech searched Hannah’s uterus for the fetus,
we clenched hands and
silently begged God to let us keep this precious life that He had formed in her womb.
The Good Lord had other plans.
The Tech informed us that there was no longer a
heart beat and that
the Physician would be in to prescribe a pill
that would help
“pass on the tissue that remained.”
I cannot put into words
the emotions that flooded that room.
My sister went home
that day and endured the most horrific pain physically,
mentally and emotionally.
Her husband doing all he could do to comfort her,
as he was aching too.
We all were.
It was a terrible experience to say the least.
She was rushed to the hospital that night, nearly hemorrhaging but
thank God she got there in the nick of time!
The pain of loosing
a baby, no matter what “stage” of life
is utterly heartbreaking!
I, myself have never experienced such a loss
but if you have a sister, relative, friend or someone you love that has experienced
such a tragedy, you will understand when I say that
my heart was broken too!
That is not to say that I hurt as deeply as they did…
I know that my pain and grief was different than Hannah and Steven’s
on many levels.
Time went by and we were thrilled to find that baby #2
was on it’s way!
Through mood swings and cravings,
Steven stayed right be her side.
Sadly, our hearts were torn again
as we mourned the loss
of this precious little life.
The following is a note from Hannah:
It breaks my heart to write that Hannah & Steven have endured a total of 4 miscarriages!
Pregnancy #4 was twins.
A total of 5 “angel babies” are now resting in the arms of Jesus.
Though they aren’t with us right now,
Words From Hannah:
“I feel so blessed that Steven and I were chosen to be mommy and daddy to these
precious angel babies.
It hurt emotionally, mentally
and physically to loose them
but looking back, I know that we have been blessed to
even have them in my womb.
I wish I could have them here on earth and hold them close
but God had other plans.
We may not always understand His plan
but we will trust it.
We have now been blessed with 4 beautiful children
that I know we would have never even met
had our biological babies survived.
We are now fostering
and have adopted 1 of our children and I wouldn’t trade my journey for nothing!
It has made me a stronger mom, wife,
and person in general.
I have such an appreciation for getting to be a mom
to our beautiful children
that God has blessed us with.
No, they didn’t grow in my womb like our angel babies did
but they sure did grow in my heart!”
A picture of Steven and Hannah’s Family