I’m not very good at speaking words.
I get this awkward knot in my throat and my hands become
I sometimes stumble over the words
that seem to spew out of my mouth before my mind processes them.
I do much better at writing words.
I suppose that has something to do with the fact that I can think
about what it is that I’m trying to say and then I’m able to re-read
what I have written.
If it doesn’t sound just right
erase and re-write it, quite simple.
But once you speak something, there is no erasing.
It’s out there, it’s so final.
Our words have power!
In the book of proverbs it says that
“death and life are in the power of the tongue.”
We can lift someone up or tear them down with our words!
Written words have power also.
As I was reading over some of the entries in my journal from the year 2013,
I re-visited the good and the bad times
of last year.
I smiled as I read the happy memories
and winced at some of the
not so happy ones.
I re-visited the joy that I felt during the good times.
I could almost hear the laughter as I read
about birthday parties,
picnics, playdates and trips.
I also remembered the hurt and disappointment
that I have felt over the course
of last year
as I read through
some of the not so happy memories.
Words can hurt.
As I went to the Lord in prayer,
I asked the Lord
to help me with my words.
Help me not to discourage others
and forgive me for the times that I have.
My heart has been completely shattered by words
from ones that I love
unfortunately, I regret to say that my words
haven’t always been kind or uplifting
Help us God with our words!
During my prayer time tonight, the Lord spoke to me
in a still, small voice
“you have built walls.”
As I layed on my bed, I felt a tugging at my heart.
The Lord reminded me
Walls of Jericho.
I looked it up in reference and it says this…
A defensive wall of the city.
A Defensive Wall!
“Yes Lord, I have built walls!”
I suppose I felt that I had a right to be defensive, to build these walls,
to protect my self
from hurt feelings and disappointment.
Oh but be careful my friends,
the enemy can be sly and we can allow ourselves
to be bound
by defense and
become busy building walls
that isolate from the “bad” but also the “good” that
God has placed in our lives.
We can be so busy building walls that
we aren’t operating outside our own walls any longer.
We may say a word to someone in passing
but no longer
participating in any relationships, no longer getting involved in anything.
People need relationships.
In the book of Genesis
God says that it is not good for Adam to be alone
but when we get hurt by others,
we isolate ourselves because we want to stay
We don’t want to be the least bit
that way we don’t get hurt any more.
I don’t know about you
but I’ve been there, I’m there!
We can no longer operate in the liberty and peace of God
when we are so bound up
in the walls that we have built for our selves.
Our walls can be labled as depression, insecurity, or even oppression.
Don’t get me wrong, we all have struggles, we’re all human
and we all have hard days
but there is a big difference in just having a
and actually building
Tonight on my knee’s during prayer time, I had to
make a choice.
I had to ask myself
“do I want to continue to reside in
the walls of my defense?”
march like the children of Israel did around those Walls of Jericho?
Will I call out His name and cry aloud
with the voice of victory
the Lord to cause my walls
When the Walls of Jericho came crashing down,
the Israelites crossed over
and possessed the land
that the Lord
had promised them!
I want to cross over to the promised land
and be free once again!
I no longer want to be isolated and bound up.
Will you come with me?
I’m ready to march, are you?
Will you call out to Him and allow the Lord
to cause your walls to
I can see the Land of Freedom, just over the wall I’ve built.
Can you see it?
C’mon, let’s live in freedom, friends!